Taylor Tobin
Once this assignment was introduced I was nervous about what I was going to do. I was mainly nervous because I often feel completely different on the inside than people see me. When I think about how I come off to other people, I feel like I come off as friendly, energetic, confident, happy and positive. But how I often feel is fat, worthless, upset, angry and broken. Even though I feel these emotions and attribute often I am still often happy because I have everything that I could ever want in my life. My idea for this assignment was to take two different picture but then manipulate them by hand into meaning more than they show. I also painted the backgrounds based on which picture it is.
When people see me I feel like they receive very positive vibes and good attribute from me. Like most people when they often meet me or talk to me they think I'm a confident, happy, friendly person because I am the type of person to always be nice to you even if I don’t like you or I don’t know you.
Some other things that I feel like I show to people are that I'm energetic and positive. When I am in a good mood or around people that I can be myself around I will be jumping around having fun. I also show to other people that I am a positive person because I will be anybody's and everyone's hype girl. If you're not feeling good about yourself I will give you positive vibes to help you feel really good about yourself.
Even though many people see me in a happier light I am often in a weird mood where I can be very down but also in a good mood. The words in this picture were inspired by events that have happened in my life. Worthless and fat were created from experiences in elementary school because I was bullied which lowered my self-confidence and made me believe these things about myself. Stressed and angry were from situations that have happened in my personal life and my school life because I often get very stressed with school but can also get mad at myself. Broken and upset were from situations that have happened with people that were very close to me. They were chosen because I thought I could trust some people in my life but then things took a turn for the worst.
At the end of this assignment, I came to realize that how I come off to people and how I actually am is very different. They are super different to me because in the first picture it is a very happy and positive picture while the other one if more dark and deep. Even though I can be very deep I am still always happy and appreciate everything that I have in my life. I am also working on making my life better and surrounding myself with people that I know I can be myself around without having to change myself. Overall this assignment has changed the way I am viewing everything and made me realize all the good things about myself.